Yesterday was that day. That day when I had every intention of being productive. I was going to reach out individually with each person who had signed up for the program - there’s around 20 of you at the start, which is exactly the way I wanted. So I could reach out, check in and offer a little more individual support as you journey through.
I also planned to spend a good amount of time working on a marketing strategy. This is my biggest challenge, because frankly, I have no idea how to get this out to the world. In the same way that I didn’t know how to get my book out to the world - and subsequently created a tiny community of people who read and appreciated the book because I gave it to them (mostly in teacher training). So I joined a Marketing Seminar. It’s full-on! Which is great. I had submitted the first assignment - a Marketing Audit - and planned to spend a few hours working on the next assignment.
Note: hell is paved with good intentions…
I meditated. Had coffee with Chris before he headed out. And then realized that it was the day that my family made its reservations for the ferry to Block Island. We go there every summer for a week. In order to bring your car, you need to make a reservation on the ferry. And the spaces go quickly.
It’s an archaic system. I am convinced that there is one phone and that the person manning that one phone takes many coffee and bathroom breaks. Because in order to get through, you have to redial. Over and over and over again.
It’s a harrowing affair. My sisters, one sister-in-law and I started at 7:30. Phones died and had to be plugged in. You couldn’t do anything else while you were redialing.
My sister-in-law texted that she had gotten in! Was on hold! And it only took FOUR HOURS for one of us to get through.
Figured I could still get the day rolling.
Then the dryer broke. Went up the hill to our neighbor to use theirs so I didn’t have two loads of wet laundry. Figured I could just pop it in and get home, get to work. At least connect with each of you.
But Granny was there. Granny is the mother-in-law to our friend and landlord. Granny is 102. 102! She can’t hear a thing and is teeny-tiny. And I LOVE her. And at that moment, I realized that it was that day. That day where my intentions slipped through the cracks of what was right in front of me.
So I hung with Granny. I screamed at her in an attempt to hold conversation (she really can’t hear), and then just sat with her as we watched some television. Folded the laundry, fixed her something to eat and went back home.
We all have those days. Yesterday, I was struggling - or maybe resisting - the fact that the day was going to play out differently than I intended. And there was nothing I could do about it, because there were other priorities that were time-sensitive and needed to be addressed. So when Granny walked out of her room, I let go. I moved into the present moment. I enjoyed the present moment.
And today? I’m back in the swing of things.
This is one of the many reasons why I created this program. You are not on a deadline. Work on it as you can. Set your intention and then? If and when you have to, let go. It will be waiting when you return.